2 Quick Things I Forgot ....

First: That last post sounded a little blue. I want to be clear: I am so excited!! I can't WAIT to go under the knife. It's the last time I'll have cancer. Today is the last day I'll ever have cancer. How could you not be excited!!

Second: My friend Jenn sent this today. Made me smile. It pretty much sums up what we're about to do ...

I Have Some Tension

I've been laying down and thinking and thinking and praying and thinking. At some point I get overwhelmed and take a deep breath. And with that exhale I notice my shoulders come down a little bit. So I concentrate on them and I realize I've been holding them up to my ears all day. So I take another breath and they lower a little more. I ask God to make me calm and hold me in the palm of His hand. And that's when I feel more relaxed and at peace. I think it's a sign I'm a little nervous.

But there's really nothing to be nervous about. I have amazing surgeons, the team of Chris and Mom at my side, and an army of prayers at my back. I can't wait to be cancer free.

My surgery is tomorrow, Tuesday, at Sloan Kettering Hospital in Manhattan. We leave tonight for the city. The surgery calls for me to be in the hospital just one night. On Wednesday, I plan on being loaded into the car and driven home in a Percocet haze and then plopped into my bed where I would like to sleep for two more days. They I plan to arise, with a clear head and a clean body, never to have to wrangle with a cancer cell again.

I can feel the prayers and well wishes. I can feel this thickness in the air. I know it's you. It's your thoughts that are keeping me warm and holding me tight. Thank you. Thank you. It's almost over. I can feel it.

xoxo